Month One

Yes, we made the decision to go for it.  Let's just say it was an exhausting month, but fun and exciting at the same time.  I even bought a ovulation kit to pin point exactly when I was suppose to ovulate.  Ever since I stopped my pill two months ago, my cycle has been way to wacky... so I figured it would be worth the money.  I took the test for 5 days and no LH surge (hormone present before ovulation).. then finally I got a "smiley face" which meant that it was really time to get serious.  I was so glad to have bought this test because if I followed the ovulation calendar online I would have been 5 days off.  Well worth the $25.00 spent.

Let's just say I think all the sex we had really had a impact on Bill.  He got super sick two weeks ago and blamed his weaken immune system on the tons of sex we were having.  No one tells you that trying to have a baby is really hard.  Most of my friends got pregnant their first month trying.  I hoped I would be the same too. 

I went to target three weeks later and bought two kinds.   Both turned a negative result.  Beyond disappointed.

I was hoping maybe the next day we would get a positive result.  Complete heartbreak came, when my period came right before I left work on Sunday morning.  I wanted to go cry.  I thought we did all we could do.   I guess its not as easy for some as for others.. what is meant to be will be.