WEEK 13

All I can say is "I am exhausted."  I went back to work on Monday and I have never felt so tired in my life.  The work week has been slow, so thank goodness I don't have a demanding schedule yet.  I am worried that the next coming weeks, when I am thrown back into the swing of things, I am will be an unproductive mess.  Hopefully, Colby will sleep through the night by then and I can handle the whole juggling work and pumping thing.

I thought it would be easier bringing Colby to daycare a week early, but now that he is there all day long, I feel so guilty and sad when I am not around him.  I really wish I could just quit and stay at home with him.  I wish that was an option for us.  Like Allison says, you can't pay the bills with "love."  Maybe when our second one comes (not for a while) then we will reconsider the whole stay at home thing.  I just feel so guilty that I am missing so many growing and learning moments with him.

We did have a visitor last weekend.  Colby's godfather Jonathan came to see the little guy.  Jonathan was so wonderful with him.  He couldn't stop holding him and talking with Colby.  I was so amazed how much he already loved the little man.  And that is why Jonathan was chosen to be the "godfather".

Grandma Marsha was suppose to come this weekend and watch Colby for a few hours so we could see the Hunger Games, but she bailed on us.  We realized that we are never going to see movies in the theater now.  Our search for a babysitter in the neighborhood has also failed.  Hopefully we can find someone in case of an emergency.

Here is Colby at 13 weeks: